nabil

hye guys!

I wish I hve my lappy right now

nak amik mood type essey nie hahahahaha

hve u notice? 

sejak 2 tahun nie aku berubah? 

ayat aku, cara aku, pemakaian aku, pemikiran aku.

aku kecewa jugak bila jadi macam ni

tiba tiba bisu

tiba tiba jadi bodoh semacam

tiba tiba belajar mencarut

hahahaha

bila aku baca posts time bahagia bagai nk rak dulu

mengingatkan aku kepada 

how I used to be

sentiasa bercakap dgn diri sendiri about life

how I appreciate my feelings

how I coop with things

and how I describe my words when I'm writing

basically I'm more interesting back then~ 

now, its kinda piece of crap

hahahaha 

aku tak mention lagi pasal nabil right? 

erm cane nk cakap eh? 

its not the love story that is going to be like I  used to write

tapi! 

aku rasa macam its my rebound

err.. biannee

I never thought I'm that kinda girl

sakai much

but I do like him when I told I like him

this is my 3rd year and aku tak nak make a fool of myself

I wanna be myself again

walaupun aku tak tahu macam mana

haccimann!

I'm going to try

tp errr.. minat aku dah berubah huhu

aku suka terperap dalam bilik

aku tak suka keluar rumah

annoying sometimes sampai mama halau suruh cari kerja kat luar 

hahahahaha

tp aku tunggu dapat lesen dulu arh

for now, cuma jadi maid

masak and kemas everyday

mama kata time nie lah nk belajar jadi perempuan

aku belajar masak guna resepi kat internet jer kowttt!! 

sometimes menjadi, sometimes tak menjadi

but its okey

atleast I give it a try

aku cuma takut one day I don't have the reason to live anymore

thats why when I started to like someone, 

I'm trying my best to find the reason of living a better life.

bukan mencarut when I feel depress and forget how to feel Him.