about last year on March.
I have accidently asked a guy from my politeknik
to actually go out and watch a movie with me.
but ofcos dengan member member aku la.
so, nak dijadikan cerita,
I fall in love at first sight.
and since then Ive been going out with him.
I know he is not a rebound's guy.
Haha
our relationship is totally not like friends kinda thing
sbb aku fall in love in first sight kan..
so... totally aku dah letak dya on my special list.
a month later, declared.
back then I barely knew him.
first couple months is quite romantic.
video call, hang around every weeks, mmg jenis yang senang diajak arhh..
lepas dah selesa with each others,
a few things changed.
I think he might thought I'm his property kot.
and he start to be 120% protective.
and ofcos he still cares about me in everythings
and he start to make me believe that he'is not a romantic guy.
since then, banyak benda yang aku buat, aku dah tak ajak dya.
plus, we always argue with each other.
everything seems wrong.
boleh dikatakan, we are like pluto and earth.
padahal aku rasa dulu I find him attractive sbb we have a lot of things in common
He want someone who is honest with him, here I am,
I need someone who is not controlling my life, but he changed me 270 degree.
and we need someone who doesnt cheat on us, so here we are.
tapi dalam relationship nie, cheating is no longer a problem.
the big problems are understanding and being tolerance with each other
sbb we have a lot of things yang tak sependapat.
kami dah sampai tahap "kau boleh tahan tak dengan aku?"
"sampai bila kau boleh tahan dengan perangai aku?"
"sampai bila aku boleh tahan dengan perangai kau?"
"CUBA UBAH PERANGAI TU"
"aku tak suka kau buat nie"
"aku tak suka kau buat tu"
THERE!! ego sangat penting bab nie.
tapi alhamdulillah even bila api dengan api pon, takde lah marak sgt.
tahu jugak lah nak berhenti.
but everyday shits happened.
bara tu kau p tiup tiup lagi, berapi lah dya.
kadang aku buat dya berapi, kadang dya buat aku berapi.
lalu, kau belajar rendahkan ego, minx maaf
but masalah tak selesai
sbb tak jumpa lagi jalan untuk tolerate with each others.
hahaha
budak nie paling special auu,.
selalunya kalau aku tak suka something about someone,
aku terus blah.
cuz' I know "kalau dah kawen nnt takkan nak mcm nie jugak"
tapi dengan budak aku tahan je, sabar.
tapi dengan budak aku tahan je, sabar.
aku tahu masing masing tak matang lagi.
so tu lah.
aku tengah tunggu otak dya matang.
and aku pon taknak act like idiot lurus kinda girl.
tapi semua orang kata aku lurus.
tapi aku tak idiot pon, alhamdulillah setakat nie result aku still elok lgi.
sbb tu aku tak rasa aku bodoh pon.
cuma tu lah, aku sentiasa look idiot infront of him.
and that shit is fucking distracting my mind.
aku tak boleh auu orang kata perkataan "bodoh"
sbb bapak aku bila marah dya akan guna perkataan tu.
and perkataan "celaka" and "aku-hang"
so, that kinda words mmg jenis yang boleh bg aku sentap.
even "shits","fuck"."babi","bongok", and other sarcasms aku tak heran sgt.
sorry for the improper words.
harap semua reader 18+ dah la.
so, jangan ikut.
hurmmm
dalam banyak banyak aku story nie,
nampak banyak aku mengeluh kan?.
and cerita pasal benda yang buruk burukkkk je.
so, here's the thing that I like about him.
bila aku lapar, dya akan suruh aku makan.
bila aku rindu dya gila gila sbb lama tak jumpa, dya akan datang.
bila aku meroyan, dya akan cuba layan walaupun terpaksa
bila aku craving something, dya akan ikut aku cari makanan tu hahahahahaha
bila aku lapar tengah malam, dya follow je pegi makan even dya tengah tak puas hati dengan aku tp ofcos la at the end aku yang sakit hati.
pastu kalau dulu,
aku nak tengok wayang, aku ajak dya.
aku nak keluar jejelan memana, aku ajak dya.
kalau ada gap kelas, sll jugak aku ajak dya lepak. (tu pon 3 kali je)
kalau nk makan pon aku ajak dya sbb dya sll on time
cuma tu lahhh lately asyik gadoh psl nak makan kat mana.
so, at the end aku dah malas nak ajak hahaha
lepastu, kalau aku nak merempit pon aku ajak dya hahaha
tp itu sebelum dya tukar moto arh..
skrg aku tak merempit dah, dah insaf.
so.... tu lah ceritanya,
orang melayu kata "nak kenal seseorang tu ambik masa 3 tahun"
aku ada lagi baki 2 tahun.
we'll see how it goes..
haha
ok bubye
assalamualaikum
